seriously i need to get out of here. i need to either move somewhere or go to rehab. i am an awful person who has no control. i do things that i know are wrong and disgusting but i do it anyway. i am screaming at myself in my head while doing these things….it’s like i am trapped inside the cockpit and my body’s on autopilot. i am fucking sick. i am so sick. i am depraved and i don’t care who i hurt to get what i need. i hate this. i want to kill myself.